decisions decisions

well....my mum and nan came over for dinner today, mum bought the ingredients, I cooked and cleaned and whatever else. well....we were chatting about my uncle who moved to America a few years ago to be with the lady of his dreams. He lived with us a fair ammount when I was younger, and in my eyes he's the most hilarious man that ever did live. why he never got into comedy performance I'll never know, but that is irrelevant. we were talking about how Catt, my aunt, would like to send the children over on a plane when they are about 8 and able to travel alone to stay with us, well Mum, all summer to see the sights and delights of Great Britannia....joy joy joy....Mum's not entirely sure about the whole thing, mainly because she worried about EVERYTHING, but it's sixish years away, and I thought to myself, I don't think I'd mind. we could go to the zoo and do various outings around and about...all my friends have kids around the same age, and it might be quite nice to have a little bit of responsibilty.....just maybe.

Mum phoned a short while ago, she's only had my uncle and aunt on the phone, and they were thinking and wondering if I'd like to go and stay with them for a year or so to look after the kids, who are about two and a half. Part of me says yes, but I'm not sure that it's something I want to jump straight into. Afterall, I really want to do that course, and I really love living here....but maybe a change of scenery would be good....but am I then just running away from all this business with finding a job...?! I actually have no idea....

Firstly, I don't think I am capable of looking after 2 small children of 2....I don't like children....hence why I don't want to teach. But then all my friends have young children and I sort of do just fine around them. Could it make finding a job on my return harder, or maybe the economic situation will be a bit more stable and at the time there will be more jobs, and less competition....would it look good or bad on a CV? Am I better off waiting a few months to see what happens here, just in case a great opportunity comes up, or would it be better to go straight away. would I get home sick? I came home all the time when I lived in Leicester....but I wont be able to do that from the other side of the pond.....

Oh cripes....this real world stuff is so completely out of my league....how did I do it before? Oh, I was still wrapped under mum and dad's wing....I guess I really didn't do it.