lets go to the fair

Ok, so yesterday....well it was interesting in a sense, but I'm still no further forward with careers and things.

I didn't really get to speak to too many recruiters yesterday, to be fair I was knackered and fed up by time i got in the place. I'd already been in London on my own for 4 hours before it opened. In heels that I don't usually wear, just because that way it looks smart. They did say to look smart as if you were going for an interview. I wish I hadn't. If it wasn't for the feet I might be alright. But yes I'd had only a couple of hours sleep, i'd been in London for 4 hours on my own, and I wasn't having fun.

Then to op it all off, there were hundreds of people floating around like monkeys trying to get to their preferred perspective employer. I was pounced on straight away by some acounting fellow. Asking if I was interested in accounts, I was infact looking for something else.

He asked about UCAs points, and then it dawned on me. Most of these companies that recruit graduates for graduate posts have a whole hoast of requirements, going right back to GCSE's I generally meet GCSE requirements anywhere because I did alright. But then they ask about A Levels and UCAS points. Well, I didn't do A Levels, and I don't have any UCAS points. I did an Access to HE course at West Suffolk College, and whilst that is fine for getting into uni, it dosen't seem to fulfil the requirements of these employers. It's ok, a couple of the employers were as clueless as me.

Then there's the degree aspect. I only got a 2:2. I was only a couple of percent off a 2:1 and it was probably all down to one assignment. Had it not been for that assignment i would have been up there in the 2:1 category, and be in a much better stead. There's only a couple of companies that interested me today, and they both have requirements of a minimum of a 2:1. RUBBISH!!

So if I go to another one of these things, I'll not wear heels. FACT! I'll attempt to find out about things I'd like to do. BUT I DON'T KNOW!!

There must be a whole vast array of careers out there, so how can not one appeal to me? I just want to make things look pretty. Floristry perhaps? But that's more of a seasonal job I think. And it's not a career as such. Maybe I am frustrated because I need a hobby? Maybe if I was sat at home making things look pretty, I'd get past that creativity part, and work out something that I myself would like to do other than create.

Problem being, hobbies cost money, and of that I have none. Not really helping much is it.

I actually feel like I am completely stuck now in a huge massive rut that I'm never going to get out of. I'm not liking it one bit.

Back to mum and dads tomorrow though....we'll see what happens once I am home.