life back at home

Ok, so I've been back at home a week. I'm not enjoying it one bit. I don't mean to sound ungrateful or anything, but I'm just not a particularly family orientatted person. To be fair none of my family are. We are all sort of 4 completely different people all stuck under one roof.

I want to be left alone to do my own thing. Yet all week, every 5 minutes my mum has felt the need to check up on me and ask me what i'm doing, even though I've done nothing. Nothing all week. I've got no money, no friends, I'm bored out of mind, and therefore lack motivation to even do simple things like make-up and think what to wear for the day. If you know me, you'll know i like to mke an effort, but I've hardly bothered this week. My mood has gone from bad to worse. A friend of mine has dumped me, and that just makes me feel used and useless, because for a change I couldn't help her out. In fact, she is my only realy friend, and I'm gutted. It's taken over my week in a huge way, and I just don't know how I'm going to deal with being a complete loner. That makes me sound really tragic I know. I'm not, I've just lost my love for life. I've always generally been rather happy go lucky, so teh fact that it's gone means that, even if I don't like to think it, I'm taking this all pretty badly.

Nevermind, I have an interview on 26th October, and one on 4th Novemeber. I may have mentioed before that I have a casual job, and i'm going to do a shift tomorrow morning. It's only an hour and a half, it wont cover the petrol costs to get there, but I don't think I can sit wallowing in self-pity any longer than i have already. Perhaps if I start doing this again it will make me feel better and give me some motivation.

I know it will be fine once I eventually get a job, and things will be easier just as soon as I do and I'm out of the house for most of the day....

Oh, my brother has a job now too. He's going to work at Curry's, starts Monday evening. My 16 years old brother has got a job before me, his 24 year old sister, with a degree. Mind you, degrees don't really count for anything thses days do they?